Ironwood Resident Testimonial – C.

Good morning treatment team, I would like to start off by thanking you for inviting me to present to you today.  My stay at Frye was a long one.  I spent seven months dwelling on the past and getting angry about things I would not change. I was scared, because I didn’t want to leave Frye.  I got comfortable.  Then I start thinking about all of the great opportunities that come with moving up to level three.  Some of you might know about my passion for horses.  When I was told I was able to ride here, my eyes lit up and my heart started racing.  Riding was something that kept me out of trouble.  When my relationship with my dad started to falter, I started going to the barn less and less.  We didn’t communicate at all.  I started to get angry and started to ruin my health with self-destructive behavior.  I spent years working with the horses at my barn, but because I was so angry and defiant, I lost all of it.  I threw that part of my life away.  My dad and I drew farther apart and we couldn’t communicate without yelling.  Years of therapy didn’t help anything.  Within these past seven months, my dad and I have been able to have civilized conversations with each other.  We can talk to each other like adults.  The distance between us definitely helped.  We were both able to work on communication in a respectful manner. This helped me gain my confidence back. I started to open up, create strong relationships with the staff, and other girls at Frye.  After losing my color the first time, it opened my eyes. I didn’t know how much work still needed to be done.  I got way too comfortable in purple.  I didn’t care about my folder and often got agitated if people asked me about it. When I was orange for the second time, it really motivated me to start working on my purple folder.  I realized that if I wanted to move forward, I had to work on my folder and my attitude.  I feel like I have made a lot of progress in level two.  I can process difficult situations on my own.  I no longer rely on staff to help me deal with my problems.  I have made a lot of progress with emotional regulation during level two.  There’s still a lot more room for improvement, but I know I am capable of it.  This is going to be a big challenge for me, and I’m scared of change, but this is my chance to move forward, and I’m willing to take that chance.  Thank you for listening.